Day 3 — The Journey Behind "After the Fire"

Releasing “After the Fire”

Yesterday was a big day for me...

I finally released my new music piece After the Fire.

After The Fire - Music Poster Design

This one is different. It’s soft, reflective, and honestly… very close to my heart.

Mostly because it was created during a strange, emotional, transformational phase in my life.

About a year ago,

I was taking a course about compassion... how to forgive the world, how to forgive ourselves, how to let go.

One of the exercises was simple but brutal:

Make a list of the people you think have wronged you…

and the people you think you may have wronged.

Because loving others is a form of self-love. And you can’t have one without the other.

So I sat down to write this list.

I thought it would be easy.

I’ve always seen myself as a forgiving person.

I even assumed: “I probably didn’t do many people wrong.”

But when I tried to recall names or events, my memory froze... Nothing... Nada...

Then slowly… one story came up.

Then another.

And after eight days, that list had around sixty different events.

And that was only what I could remember.

Reviewing that list was… honestly, a whole journey on its own.

A kind of self-discovery I didn’t expect. It was mission-critical for my own growth.

The second chapter of the exercise

The second chapter of the exercise was even harder: Writing letters... asking for forgiveness, or offering forgiveness.

Five days in a row, I sat with myself, writing those letters, reliving the stories, understanding the patterns.

It was like talking to my past selves, witnessing who I was and how I reacted.

And that’s the thing about forgiveness… It removes resentment, and reveals the architecture of your life... the chain of actions and reactions, the traumas, the habits, the moments that shaped you.

It became a kind of self-therapy. A big zoom-out on who I’ve been.

By the end of this long, confronting process, I slept incredibly well.

It felt freeing. I felt love for the world in a different way.

And a few days later, the music arrived.

I woke up with this melody... sad, soft, but warm.

A reminder that even when everything burns down… love is still the answer.

I’ll be around.

— BARA